Fatshionista. Spreading Fat Acceptance, Feminism and Social Justice with a sparkly flame thrower. I love puppies and kittens and punk and grunge and comics and sci-fi and rainbows and unicorns. Oh and I have an obsession with foxes. And the less popular, largely misunderstood 'possum. Really just all the animals except spiders. And I'm a proud Mommy in the process of coaching my daughter in the fine art of bad-assery so she never takes an ounce of crap from anyone.
Because (TW: Weight loss, Abuse, Bullying)
Five years old, hospital, lungs in danger, use my machine every four hours every day, can’t go out to play, she says ‘you were so tiny your ribs poked out’ and I swear I hear nostalgia there
Because I was skinny
Seven years old, matching outfits with best friend, he says ‘you’re both wearing the same thing but she looks good and you look fat,’ stomach flips, and now I don’t deserve these clothes or my friend
Because I am fat
Eleven years old, weight of a grown woman, stuffed into a school uniform, forced invitations to slumber parties, they call me ‘pig’ but say it is code for nice, and I want to believe them oh how I want to
Because I am fat
Twelve years old, cruelest years, laughter, name calling, gum spit in my hair, inside jokes about me in my face, let them cheat for a moment’s peace, bully cusses and threatens and pushes me into corners, and I just want to go home to my dog, my only friend
Because I am fat
Thirteen years old, he says ‘Fat women try to dress up and hide it but there’s no way to hide fat and they can never look good,” lump in my throat, and I can never again feel like Daddy’s ‘little’ girl
Because I am fat
Fifteen years old, somehow in the popular clique, dress like them, crop top, a shout of ‘gross put your shirt down,’ no date to homecoming, and I am not even surprised when the group dumps me
Because I am fat
Sixteen years old, sitting on the bedroom floor, my almost-boyfriend, tongue pierced, blonde curls, easy smile, everyone wants him but he is here with me, she passes by, ‘why don’t you get her to lose some weight,’ I am not the daughter she dreamed of
Because I am fat
Twenty-one years old, hits me, breaks me down, terrible threats, constant fear, drop out of school, can’t deal, two words over and over, ‘fat bitch,’ and I don’t leave because otherwise I might be alone forever
Because I am fat
Twenty-two years old, want a new man, no carbs, exercise two hours a day, a nip and tuck, congratulations all round, I’ve made it to the human club, she finally looks at me like I’m beautiful, buys me clothes, and everyone loves my new body even though it is scarred and painful
Because I am not fat
Twenty-four years old, it comes back, ‘need to lose it for your health,’ terrified, doctors say obese and diabetes and heart attack, so much shame, make him look away when I am weighed, and I suspect he might wish I didn’t look like this
Because I am fat
Twenty-seven years old, a joyous time, but books say I shouldn’t be pregnant like this, other women panic about being half my weight, and no one says ‘congratulations’ because they are afraid they might have it wrong
Because I am fat
Thirty-three years old, self-loathing and shame for as long as I can remember
Then, these women, fat accepting, obesity glorifying, proudly showing their bodies, bodies like mine, talking about love and sex and clothes and food and just living
Above all, the radical idea that I AM ALLOWED TO EXIST AS I AM and others do not have the right to be critical or superior or cruel
Because I am fat
Forever, I am her world, I think what if, what if she lives what I lived, too soon to tell, have to stop it before it ever begins, explain it all to her, respect and kindness for everyone, she gets it, Mommy I am skinny and beautiful and you are fat and beautiful, and I know I was able to teach her this important thing
Because I am fat
Every day now, look at their pictures, read their stories, understand their sorrow, their anger, their joy, not alone, adding my pictures, my stories, my sorrow, anger, joy, adding my VOICE, DON’T GIVE A FUCK, and I begin to inspire some people myself
BECAUSE I AM FAT
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Online Dating Site Creepy Thing #4,836,153,390
UPDATE: Upon further inspection, I have decided he is most likely a porn actor. He mentions being in 7 or 8 recent films and actually described himself as being “hung like a horse.” Apparently I’m a skeeze magnet.When I have several pictures, full body included, on my profile, he tells me in his greeting that he’d like to “see more images.” When his own second picture is a close-up of his pants with the first button undone.
The best thing is that these people are complaining that white people ruin everything and are the devil and only steal everything from PoC while 99% of…
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Online Dating Site Creepy Thing #4,836,153,390
When I have several pictures, full body included, on my profile, he tells me in his greeting that he’d like to “see more images.” When his own second picture is a close-up of his pants with the first button undone.
*doesn’t give a fuck if feminists, including self, are seen as man-haters by ridiculous man-children*Just thought I’d share this charming piece of graffiti from near my home.
By the way, this is the ONLY women’s library in the country, it has only women’s work in it and also serves as a sort of feminist museum. They’re affiliated with a university close by and hold regular events such as workshops and talks on subjects like the poetry of immigrant women of colour or the representation of mental health in women’s literature. Its also due to be closed down by the Conservatives.
Can men go in and borrow books written by women?
Yeah, totally, they even do events for men by women on intro to feminism, rape culture stuff sometimes!
god forbid women have a single fucking thing without men getting jealous like fucking children
Ugh
Men ruin everything. They’re furious and dissatisfied if anything less than 100% of the world’s institutions and organisations cater to them. Whoever vandalised that library wall should be flayed like the greedy little sexist dickhead he is.
Well um the last comment is a little generalizing
Um I get that you’re angry but never generalize, it gives us feminists that man-hating portrayal when no, we think dudes are cool, we just wanna be equal and stuff.
Like I love this post but that last comment just insulted feminists like please stop making us look like we fight hate with hate
That is the last thing a feminist does
‘Never generalise but here’s a general statement on how to behave’
hi hello if you’re reading this i hope something good happens to you today
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November was when more than half of the Harry Potter movies came out. :(
WE’RE HURTLING TOWARDS
THE END
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